2 posts tagged “junior”

If I cannot hold you in my arms, I will hold you in my heart forever......

So yesterday was rough, but I made it through to Tuesday.  I guess that is something.  I tried my hardest to keep motivated and on task, but it was hard.  There are just so many emotions swirling around that it is difficult to concentrate.  But I hung in there until the afternoon when I found it extremely hard to concentrate so I left the house.  It was my first time outside alone in almost two weeks.  I ended up at Beverly's Fabrics.  I wasn't sure why, but I was there and I was urning for something to create.  I decided to make a plate to pay tribute to our lil peanut with Mod-Podge, Fabric and some puffy paint.  But while I was there I found this adorable beanie baby that I just had to have.  See, I have been contemplating taking my few lil mementos of mommy-hood and putting them in a nice box or something so I could hold onto the few things I had and touch them if needed.  Well the box turned into a Beanie Baby and it now holds all my precious mommy-mem's in it's belly.  So, I can have it forever and no one will know the wiser...well except for everyone on Vox (wow I made a joke).

Anyway - I also made another huge step, I called my BFF Melissa.  Of course I have had plenty of calls and emails from gal-pals wanting to talk, but I have just not been ready.  But I called and she of course got me laughing, then crying and then laughing again.  It was a step in the right direction.  And today I MUST continue in that direction.  I am looking forward to having my body back after it completely heals and I am looking forward to having my heart back someday soon as well.